I guess I was a typical teenager - I tried to do well at school even though I was only classed as 'average' (I know I was a teacher's pet/goody-two-shoes lets face it), I started secondary school with a good group of friends, some of whom I had known since nursery, yet I could be moody at times!

I remember being top of the class at junior school, yet when i moved up to secondary I dropped down to the 'average' category and I think that really knocked me back. I was used to being one of the best, yet I went into Year 7 not getting that attention anymore. I admit I was a suck-up back then, but all I wanted was to do my best.

It got to Year 9 where a majority of my 'friends' turned against me, and the only reason I got from them was because I was 'boring'. To this day, 13 years or so down the line, I still don't truly know what I did to make them all turn their back on me and force me to be a 'loner'. Surely that wasn't the only reason? 

My confidence was hit so much by this - I stopped being chatty and withdrew from everything, I became extremely paranoid about nearly situation and person, there were times I begged my parents to let me change schools because I couldn't cope with the fact that no one liked me. I must have cried nearly every night. Even now, one of my worst fears is not being liked, and I guess it stems from my experiences at school. I was also a target for bullies - I remember being removed out of Maths because a group of girls would throw paper at me and I was told I was a liar (by the class and teacher) when the teacher was giving out sweets to another girl because it was her birthday, yet it was my birthday too.

I don't know why school has been on my mind recently, I don't like to dwell on it because it just reminds me of how sad I was. Going to university was the best thing I could ever have done as it got me out of that mindset. I deleted a lot of my school friends on Facebook a few years back as I didn't want to be connected to that negativity anymore. Some re-added me (I guess they did notice I existed after all) but we don't really talk. We just get on with our lives.